Okay last post for the night and then all of my attention is going back to this essay. My oldest brother decided to buy an all black Under Armour body spandex set because he works out a lot and it’s cold and he keeps jumping up and down yelling, “I’m Spiderman!” then he changes his voice to be really deep and coarse and says, “I’m Batman!”
… and you guys think I’m weird and immature. He’s 22 years old. Oh the joys of graduating college and not having to suffer through/endure dead week…
My family thinks I should take a selfie and send it to my professor/TA with the hashtags, “#Imreallysick #extension?” ahahaha. First off, it’s kind of sweet in a weird sort of way that my family is worried about my health and second, how shitty do I currently look if they think a current selfie will actually enable an extension on my final paper due tomorrow?
The good thing about being so sick is that I can’t go to sleep because my body keeps going wonky in maintaining a normal temperature; so I’ll go from sweating to shivering uncontrollably which means no sleep which means more time for my essay. Also, I’ve been coughing/sneezing out very little specks of blood… is that safe? Meh… doesn’t matter it’s finals week and, therefore, I must soldier through. Stay positive.
Who took a 3hr. math final with a sore throat, migraine, 103 degree fever (I’m not even exaggerating), and a runny nose on Saturday? *thumbs pointed towards self* This girl… whoopwhoop.
Who can’t go to sleep because of cold sweats followed by sudden body chills and coupled with a completely congested nose? *thumbs pointed towards self* This girl.
Whose going to finish writing out a major final essay that’s about 8pgs. long on basically minimum sleep and continuing cold symptoms resulting in their looking like the personification of death?*thumbs pointed towards self* This girl.
Worst dead week ever… just need to push through it. So close to the finish line.
For the math final there was heavy traffic and even though I left an hour and thirty minutes before the test started I was still late by five minutes which only intensified my stress. Also, my brain felt all groggy from the cold and I literally used up almost an entire packet of mini-kleenex during the final…
I have caught some sort of throat cold and currently sound like a cross between a donkey, a chain-smoker, and a man. Yup, it’s back… that weird voice I get when I get a very specific type of throat cold and people are just like, “What the hell is wrong with your voice?” haha.
Anyways, is it weird that I’m kind of excited to write this final essay for my English class? I have all of these ideas I want to write about, and I’m kind of scared the paper will come off as disconnected. I talked with my professor about it today, and now I just want to knock out a kickass paper. It’ll be a challenge to present an all encompassing cohesive argument with all of the ideas I want to discuss, but if I can manage to pull it off I think the paper will be somewhat decent.
First I have to get through tonight though… no sleep. Math midterm tomorrow. Meh. Taking it day by day.
I had the most sweetest kickass TA for Acctg. this quarter and I just left the last qz. section after finishing evaluations. He is honestly the kindest guy you’ll ever meet, completely down to earth/empathetic, and to top it all off he knows his stuff and is good at teaching/explaining it! He’s busy with his own life because he’s getting his MBA and going on job interviews but he selflessly devotes so much time to helping you and goes out of his way to make practice problems and goes to lectures to make sure everything correlates. So thankful! I hope he gets that Acctg. job at Nordstrom because he totally deserves it. Sending good karma points your way Viktor Krum TA who is buff as hell but is like a teddy bear on the inside! I honestly get way too choked up when I just get an amazing TA… I literally wrote thank you on the course evaluation… Ahahaha I’m such a sap. I’ve always wanted to say thank you to my TAs and like bake them a scone and just high five them… but that’s awkward so I usually mumble a thanks and send good karma thoughts their way haha.
I have this book for my German Literature class and it has two works included. We were only required to read the first work… and let’s just say it was amazing; and now I want to read the second work, but I have to study for finals and work on my final essay and my inner bibliophile is all unsatisfied and disgruntled.
Winter break I can finally attack my never-ending reading list. But first I have to get through my math midterm on Saturday, my final essay due Monday, and my accounting final next Friday (1 week and 1 day left… I can do this.) Positive thoughts. Positive mentality. Homestretch.
"Some people are uncomfortable with silences. Not me. I’ve never cared much for call and response. Sometimes I will think of something to say and then I ask myself: is it worth it? And it just isn’t."
“This piece was primarily a trust exercise, in which she told viewers she would not move for six hours no matter what they did to her. She placed 72 objects one could use in pleasing or destructive ways, ranging from flowers and a feather boa to a knife and a loaded pistol, on a table near her and invited the viewers to use them on her however they wanted.
Initially, Abramović said, viewers were peaceful and timid, but it escalated to violence quickly. “The experience I learned was that … if you leave decision to the public, you can be killed… I felt really violated: they cut my clothes, stuck rose thorns in my stomach, one person aimed the gun at my head, and another took it away. It created an aggressive atmosphere. After exactly 6 hours, as planned, I stood up and started walking toward the public. Everyone ran away, escaping an actual confrontation.”
This piece revealed something terrible about humanity, similar to what Philip Zimbardo’s Stanford Prison Experiment or Stanley Milgram’s Obedience Experiment, both of which also proved how readily people will harm one another under unusual circumstances.”
This performance showed just how easy it is to dehumanize a person who doesn’t fight back, and is particularly powerful because it defies what we think we know about ourselves. I’m certain the no one reading this believes the people around him/her capable of doing such things to another human being, but this performance proves otherwise.”
this is why performance art is important
So every single person who told me ‘ignore them they’ll go away’ and ‘you can’t let them know they bothered you’ and ‘They’ll stop if they don’t see you react’ and all that bull shit, my entire school career, I want you to look good and hard at this.
I want you to think about what you said.
What you keep saying.
What you are telling your children.
You are making them powerless.
that last comment. actually crying.
(Source: andrewfishman, via langleav)